WTFx23

 August 17

First day of class. So so weird, and so awesome. So I got to my classroom early to check out the equipment and the door was locked so the first thing I had to do was call the police to get the doors open. Then I tried to get the computer started and it took forever to load my profile. Then I had to connect the USB with my power points and it was only the third USB port that worked. Then it turned out that Teams was not downloaded on that computer so I had to do that and ask some students in the class (mixed f2f and online) to post to the teams group why I was not showing and THEN I could not make the sound work - I could see the students and they could see and hear me but I could not hear them. So we had to have one of the students in the room keep track of the chat and read chat posts out loud. But we did and it worked and we learned things and it is such a magical thing and I am so, so very grateful that I get to do this thing.

 World: 21,815,984 - 772,856
US: 5,437,573 - 170,492 dead
Sweden: 85,045 - 5,787 dead
Russia:

Florida: 576,094 - 9,539 dead

Texas: 561,110 - 10,447 dead    

 

 August 18

Learned about stuff and took care of students and am slowly looking into Julia's stuff. Kim's birthday party which was lovely with poetry by Mai Perkins and laughter and drinks and beautiful outfits. Whitney, Ben, Erin G, Katie D, Ashley B, Anne GFand others were there.

 World: 22,136,954 - 780,908
US: 5,482,416 - 171,821 dead
Sweden: 85,219 - 5,790 dead
Russia:

Florida: 579,932 - 9,758 dead

Texas: 568,812 - 10,678 dead   

 

 

 

 August 19

Got part of the Adobe issue fixed. Watched a standup with Seth Meyers.

 World: 22,325,761 - 786,258
US: 5,528,493 - 173,125 dead
Sweden: 85,411 - 5,802 dead
Russia:

Florida: 584,047 - 9,932 dead

Texas: 574,633 - 10,934 dead    

 

August 20

Met with Kate to explain the program. Went to campus and got my mask and downloaded some lectures and did the admin meeting from other. John was there, as was Michael. Made a green and blue necklace with matching earrings, pink earrings for the cabochon, and watched the first half of a Pale Horse

 World: 22,609,467 - 792,708
US: 5,573,743 - 174,248 dead
Sweden: 85,810 - 5,805 dead
Russia:

Florida: 588,602 - 10,049 dead

Texas: 579,892 - 11,174 dead   

 

August 21

Grad team meeting about a bit of everything - I need to make a survey for current students. Met with Kendra who is very sweet but is becoming obviously mercenary. Some stress at the house, very fragile ... Micro Center for another hard drive for J and then  Chicfila and the second half of a Pale Horse. Scott Padgett says we have two hurricanes heading toward the coast - landing in New Orleans and Houston ... DFW, he says, is under the cone of uncertainty ... yeah, well, we have been under a cone of uncertainty since February ..

 World: 22,868,238 - 797,871
US: 5,621,324 - 175,350 dead
Sweden: 86,068 - 5,810 dead
Russia:

Florida: 593,286 - 10,168 dead

Texas: 585,632 - 11,418 dead    

 

August 22

Wrote Michael - and then added that I realized I had the wrong day. Called Inger and got the details of the funeral - awesomely beautiful apparently. Jim met with the twins and I sat on the ground with a very scared dog who did not bite me, although I thought she might several times. Phew. The horses too were good to meet again. Lunch at Railhead, pie at Emporium. Drove through Cedar Springs and saw the rainbow crosswalks. The Quick and the Dead. Half of a Campion.

 World: 23,134,358 - 803,499
US: 5,667,179 - 176,348 dead
Sweden: 86,068 - 5,810 dead
Russia:

Florida: 597,597 - 10,274 dead

Texas: 589,349 - 11,581 dead   

 

August 23

Talked with Rachel about Milton. Later Annika about life. We went out and did some stuff and did not get food at jollibee chicken, but instead ate at Tacodeli ... which was okay. Sex and laundry and the second half of a Campion and John Oliver and I took my medicine a bit early - yeah. Nervous about class.

 World: 23,358,598 - 807,830
US: 5,701,938 - 176,801 dead
Sweden: 86,068 - 5,810 dead
Russia:

Florida: 600,571 - 10,325 dead

Texas: 594,173 - 11,699 dead   

 

22 WFT and counting

 August 10

Daily meeting a bit subdued. I tried bringing up the layoffs, but Nils came on at that moment to talk about the fall semester. Not even .... full full day that was only done at 8 when I had finally sent out the TA orientation invite. Phew. Before that an hour with the National Black Student Organization with speakers from Skye Jackson to her grandpa to so many wonderful faculty and students bearing witness and support. A treasure.

 World: 20,014,574 - 734,755
US: 5,089,416 - 163,425 dead
Sweden: 82,972 - 5,766 dead
Russia:

Florida: 536,961 - 8,277 dead

Texas: 509,581 - 9,230 dead  

August 11

Kamala Harris is our VP. Seeing everybody rally round her and the team. Now let's win this!

 World: 20,223,306 - 740,276
US: 5,141,193 - 164,531 dead
Sweden: 83,126 - 5,770 dead
Russia:

Florida: 552,792 - 8,553 dead

Texas: 517,700 - 9,222 dead  

August 12

Did stuff. Paid bills. Worried about the post office.

 World: 20,620,847 - 749,358
US: 5,197,118 - 166,026 dead
Sweden: 83,455 - 5,774 dead
Russia: 900,745 - 15,231 dead

Florida: 550,901 - 8,795 dead

Texas: 523,977 - 9,527 dead  

 

 

 

August 13

Meetings and meetings and meetings ... oh, and meetings, including the new student orientation. Even more worried about the post office.

 World: 20,840,381 - 754,566
US: 5,248,722 - 167,106 dead
Sweden: 83,852 - 5,776 dead
Russia:

Florida: 557,137 - 8,913 dead

Texas: 530,587 - 9,771 dead   

August 14

More meetings, including the new TA orientation. Still worried about the post office. Dinner from PF Chang. Jonas called.

 World: 21,083,098 - 763,323
US: 5,312,464 - 168,429 dead
Sweden: 84,294 - 5,783 dead
Russia:

Florida: 563,285 - 9,141 dead

Texas: 539,673 - 10,078 dead   

 

 

August 15

Talked to Mom. Lunch at Mixed Up Burger. Got a plant, got the survey out to my students. Watched John Mulaney (the Comeback Kid) and Nikky Glazer (...)

 World: 21,459,699 - 771,063
US: 5,361,165 - 169,481 dead
Sweden: 84,294 - 5,783 dead
Russia:

Florida: 569,637 - 9,345 dead

Texas: 546,552 - 10,268 dead    

August 16

Talked to Mom. Worked and worked and worked.

 World: 21,672,186 - 775,244
US: 5,403,213 - 170,052 dead
Sweden: 84,294 - 5,783 dead
Russia:

Florida: 573,416 - 9,452 dead

Texas: 555,394 - 10,396 dead   

WFT turns 21 - how is that possible?

August 3

Started the day with over a hundred email. Ended it with less than 30. Alice was welcoming and it was nice to be back. Talked with A this morning - some real serious stress there, physical pain and bad emotional reaction to the cortizone, makes people so aggressive. Had a nice lunch from Taco Bell and then asked for indian food for dinner - Jamie was there and it was so very nice to see her! Last episode of "I'll be gone in the dark" Such a powerful love story, story about obsession, survival, fear, and grit.

 World: 18,224,253 - 692,679
US: 4,713,500 - 155,402 dead
Sweden: 81,012- 5,744 dead
Russia:

Florida: 491,884 - 7,157 dead

Texas: 456,624 - 7,016 dead 

August 4

Lots to do but I did make progress. Ended with only 15 emails. Stomach upset and angry and me a little feverish (99.7 as opposed to my usual 97.7). Had a nice long conversation w the brother. I am so privileged. They are doing well, even talking about bringing mom over later on. I think she would like that. Couldn't find anything to watch so ended up with Kristen Bell Momsplaining - hilarious.

 World: 18,469,834 - 699,250
US: 4,768,829 - 156,771 dead
Sweden: 81,181- 5,747 dead
Russia:

Florida: 497,330 - 7,402 dead

Texas: 465,456 - 7,261 dead 

August 5

The official long day. Comet giving day - gave to the library, the comet cupboard, and A&H. Fever down and stomach better, but still a bit weak. My oxygen is good though and I think I will be just fine. Jim found Chimay red so we got that after work. Playing Rock the Casbah and Sometimes it snows in April in my head. I wonder what Tracey would say if he was with us still and I am glad that Cecelia is not, but I strangely miss her. She was obnoxious in so many ways, but she cared deeply for her friends. In September 20 million people will become homeless in the US. Schools cannot, should not open, but students will not learn from a shelter.

I panicked for a bit, but I figured out that it is my job to keep the faith. I cannot fix the world but I can hold out for goodness and joy. People made music in the camps, dammit, and I can hold steady.

 World: 18,738,350 - 706,342
US: 4,821,296 - 158,170 dead
Sweden: 81,540 - 5,760 dead
Russia:

Florida: 509,739 - 7,627 dead

Texas: 476,999 - 7,706 dead  

 

 

August 6

Another long day. Got to talk to mom for 10 minutes. Needed work on the TA orientation. Put together a side table for me. Tony back from the hospital and much better and stronger - they don't know why, but we are grateful

 World: 19,021,922 - 713,813
US: 4,882,270 - 160,091 dead
Sweden: 81,967 - 5,766 dead
Russia:

Florida: 510,389 - 7,747 dead

Texas: 483,920 - 8,569 dead 

 

 

 

August 7

My godfather died yesterday - choked on a bun at the hospital. Several of my co-workers got RIFed - scared, angry, and sad that my world is not safe and they are hurting.

So much past running through my head as I go, the peppermint tea took me to Paris and the cafe and the arabic center, Eurythmics takes me back to everywhere. Driving in the car with Jim takes me back to being little and going with dad to assignments where he would work and I would sleep in the car.

 World: 19,306,868 - 719,830
US: 4,941,635 - 161,347 dead
Sweden: 82,323 - 5,763 dead
Russia:

Florida: 518,075 - 7,927 dead

Texas: 491,304 - 8,847 dead 

 

 

August 8

Absence - the pandemic shows up in absence, of companies leaving blank windows behind when they go out of business, of people leaving a gaping hole when they are RIFed, of whole parts of your life going blank when someone dies. Absence - the void is terrifying and it leaves the web of your world unraveled. 

Talked to Inger today and I know now where the funeral will be and where he will be buried. I can see it on Google earth and pull up pictures of the church and surroundings.

Worked hard to figure out the syllabus and recording and stuff and Rachel called at ten to say she will not be ready for Milton in the morning. She calmed me down and helped me prioritize. I love her.

 World: 19,637,506 - 726,781
US: 4,997,929 - 162,422 dead
Sweden: 82,323 - 5,763 dead
Russia:

Florida: 526,577 - 8,109 dead

Texas: 497,632 - 9,058 dead 

 

 

August 9

A fair bit of cleaning of paperwork from the nook. Move the stuff around in the book shelf so we could move the chair back in front of the book shelf. Moved the safe. All in all - progress. For the rest I talked to mom and to Jonas and the kids (who wanted to see the refrigerator where luckily there were pictures of them!) Class prep and more class prep - eek. Some stuff for SSEMWG that was panicky at first - lost the password and had no record and took a while before I got the idea right, but I think I did it.

I realize how little I write about politics - because it is even scarier than death. There is no longer a shared sense of good will.

 World: 19,792,519 - 730,089
US: 5,044,821 - 162,938 dead
Sweden: 82,323 - 5,763 dead
Russia:

Florida: 532,806 - 8,186 dead

Texas: 503,328 - 9,157 dead 

 

20 weeks of wtf

July 27

Jim was ready to go and I dragged my feet a little. We got the bicycle rack put  together but I had to stop for a phone conference about new ICE requirements. Picked up the mail and mom's package with candy and books and a cookbook. Had lunch (Chickfilet) at Legacy Park in Arlington and then went for a bike ride there. Started a new book together - number five of Davenport, but the first one for me in the series. Answered emails and tried to organize a bit. Talked to my brother who was happy to get ot walk on the golf course. Dinner on the remaining barbecue and some SNL. I am wondering if isolation is easier on old people with a lot of internal life going, but harder because we don't have as much time left and life might pass us by - - the sense of loss grows heavier because so many things are getting to be too late and we feel the window closing?

 World: 16,409,902 - 652,531
US: 4,288,012 - 148,009 dead
Sweden: 79,295- 5,700 dead
Russia:

Florida: 432,747 - 5,931 dead

Texas: 398,692 - 5,713 dead 

July 28

Talked to Sinikka, talked to mom. Did a couple of hours of work, then lunch at In-n-Out and a lamp from Office Depot and some beads from Michaels. We tried to get a safe but the sales clerk just said they are expensive and he did not have any on the floor. Short nap and then dinner with Ad Astra. Throat hurt and some muscle ache - Jim coughing. Scared for a while and vertigo, that feeling when you go all the way down the drain thinking about what could happen ... then I felt better and we watched some SNL.

 World: 16,670,063 - 659,077
US: 4,351,997 - 149,256 dead
Sweden: 79,494 - 5,702 dead
Russia:

Florida: 441,977 - 6,117 dead

Texas: 408,493 - 5,913 dead 

July 29

Looked at and then went and bought a safe and then a dolly and then got it upstairs, all 100 lbs of it. Fell apart watching Grantchester. Anger and frustration at all the bad and stupid and unfairness and fear. Made a promo for the Comet Cupboard

 World: 16,978,206 - 666,239
US: 4,426,935 - 150,708 dead
Sweden: 79,782 - 5,730 dead
Russia:

Florida: 451,423 - 6,333 dead

Texas: 418,995 - 6,193 dead 

July 30

Did my hours at the Cupboard. Worked with Megan. Lots of people there so steady work. Herman Cain died and I mixed him up with Ben Carson ... ah well. Checked my mail (Kevin let me in through the Founders door) and the office was open so I locked it and went up to check with Michael. Had a nice long chat. Not sure how to bring happy.

Went to buy an end table at Ikea. They were out so we went to get the mail. Ordered koozies online and looked at tables on Amazon. Figured out how to re-code the safe - turns out we had received the wrong manual. Much easier with the right instructions.

 World: 17,241,298 - 672,062
US: 4,494,966 - 152,062 dead
Sweden: 80,100 - 5,739 dead
Russia:

Florida: 461,379 - 6,586 dead

Texas: 428,229 - 6,442 dead 

July 31

Took a while and I talked to my godmother who is so good at doing well and enjoying and making the most of things .... we finally got out and then went to IKEA and got a table (hmm) and then to Joe Pool Lake and had lunch and went in the water and it was gorgeous. Then home and Jim dropped me at the park and I walked home and listened to Marianne Faithful and the Waterboys and cried in overwhelm at the memories of all the times I was so excited, when I went to San Fransisco and it was cool and weird and so much I did not understand but I found John Miles and Fisherman's Wharf and I knew the world was out there waiting walking in New York (coz of Arthur's Theme) and the feeling of the seventies and feeling old because there are so many echoes ... and then we crashed and got pizza and watched midsummer murder and sat together.

 World: 17,533,034 - 678,775
US: 4,561,511 - 153,415 dead
Sweden: 80,422 - 5,743 dead
Russia:

Florida: 470,386 - 6,843 dead

Texas: 437,815 - 6,683 dead 

August 1

We must have gotten up ... and had breakfast. Then it took a while but we got out and down to the car with our bicycles and parked at a Starbucks off Forest and then rode the trail to Northwood Park, almost exactly a mile and a half. Rested a bit and then rode back. After some stress we ended up going to Klyde Warren Park for lunch - I had a serious salad with kale, spinach, shredded pear, walnuts, feta, cranberries (well, they were out) and carrots (instead of cranberries). Yum. Ended with Italian ice and then home past Albertsons for milk. Lazy afternoon, got a nap and some intimacy and silly games and then watched Aquaman with pizza. Some scenes were cute, but most of it was just silly.

Ben called when we were headed for the park and just wanted to chat - they bought a new car for Kerri and Jonathan got a dog, a golden retriever.

Cut the claws of the cats - Nietschze was annoyed, Sigmund panicked.

 World: 17,793,532 - 684,075
US: 4,620,239 - 154,360 dead
Sweden: 80,422 - 5,743 dead
Russia:

Florida: 480,028 - 7,022 dead

Texas: 444,738 - 6,783 dead 

August 2

Milton - book 8, line 215. We are motoring through, slowly but inexorably. Went to the lake again - with Lauri this time. Spent about two hours and enjoyed ourselves thoroughly. Took the coffee table back and had a run in with  a maskless man and his angry wife. I very gently asked him to put on the mask he was carrying but not wearing, and he started by asking me if I worked there ... she called me a trouble maker ... Jim got involved and the whole thing degenerated into name calling. Bleah.

Came home, crashed, talked to mom and did laundry. Had dinner and watched episodes four and five of "I will be gone in the dark" and I lost it when Michelle died. These overdoses are so hopelessly useless and maddening.

 World: 18,019,472 - 689,347
US: 4,667,930 - 154,859 dead
Sweden: 80,422 - 5,743 dead
Russia:

Florida: 487,132 - 7,084 dead

Texas: 448,105 - 6,878 dead 

19 WTF and going strong - mad - tired

July 20

Lots of meetings - stayed up too late with Jim. There was a walk some day, not sure which.

 World: 14,705,330 - 609,955
US: 3,830,045 - 140,906 dead
Sweden: 78,048 - 5,639 dead
Russia:

Florida: 360,394 - 5,072 dead

Texas: 343,783 - 4,106 dead 

July 21

We took a nap and there was so much I remembered, stories I was going to share of times and things and people and they were so vivid in my mind and now they are gone. One of the things is Middlemarch - Dorothea who really was a saint, living a small life, but bringing good to the world, changing the fabric of reality around her. Trying to think of a way to tell MW that he matters, that he underestimates his influence on the world. Talked to Jonas who is doing okay, although C is still so very anxious. He got to do Walmart curbside pickup though - out of the house, so that is good.

Remember to breathe, remember you are just a tiny thing, remember to love.

 World: 14,898,145 - 615,462
US: 3,899,072 - 141,992 dead
Sweden: 78,166 - 5,646 dead
Russia:

Florida: 369,834 - 5,206 dead

Texas: 351,071 - 4,199 dead 

July 22

I just caught myself thinking that I would pray for someone ... never thought that before ... just sending good wishes for them out into the aether ... Talked with some really good students today, and they give me hope ... you know ... long term.

Dinner from Chickfilet that we ate in the car in the park. Then I did a short walk and Jim waited in the truck and then we went home. The Borgias - better than I thought.

 World: 15,177,447 - 622,183
US: 3,969,786 - 143,178 dead
Sweden: 78,504 - 5,667 dead
Russia:

Florida: 379,619 - 5,345 dead

Texas: 363,615 - 4,439 dead 

July 23

I feel very privileged and we had a hot fudge sundae when we were trying to get beer.

 World: 15,446,800 - 632,178
US: 4,034,102 - 144,242 dead
Sweden: 78,763- 5,676 dead
Russia:

Florida: 389,868 - 5,518 dead

Texas: 371,929 - 4,607 dead 

July 24

Got a fair bit underway. New ICE regulations - again. Rick is in hospice (died tonight) and the classes have to be changed.

 World: 15,676,604 - 638,577
US: 4,111,950 - 145,539 dead
Sweden: 78,997- 5,697 dead
Russia:

Florida: 402,312 - 5,653 dead

Texas: 380,364 - 4,790 dead 

July 25

Talked to mom for a bit. Left the house at three and went for a bike-rack and then to get the mail and then dinner from Rosa's at Lauri's. Some stress along the day. Talked w L about how we have not solved our Sudokus lately. There is a fog over everything.

Also, I should write about how we are bad at listening, just riffing on each others stories to tell our own. I tell a story to make a point. He hears the story but has his own point to make. I feel not heard.

 World: 16,046,986 - 644,528
US: 4,178,021 - 146,460 dead
Sweden: 78,997- 5,697 dead
Russia: 805,332 - 13,172

Florida: 414,511 - 5,777 dead

Texas: 390,286 - 4,990 dead 

July 26

Rachel and I started book 8. Talked about how hard it is to set boundaries with other people - even when it might kill you not to do so. Talked with Annika - T is hurting and doesn't always say so. Doctor's screwed up giving medication that gives you an ulcer without giving the ulcer medication. People are human - yeah, but no. Can you be mad at someone who is really sick or do they always get to win? Building a desk for your partner, what a labor of love.

Sex, Terry Black, walk on the park bridge. Aeon Flux (20 minutes was all we could stand), and then episode one of Saturday Night Live. Brilliant.

 World: 16,201,176 - 647,928
US: 4,233,927 - 146,934 dead
Sweden: 78,997- 5,697 dead
Russia:

Florida: 423,855 - 5,854 dead

Texas: 394,084 - 5,076 dead 

WTF 18

July 13

......Got the Yukon to the Carmax for repairs. Got some people written to, got some food, got my bra tag taken off and pizza for dinner. Talked to Jonas while we were at the store - told him I was worried about him and missed him. He sent a chicken recipe and said he got a radio for mom. Good for her to have.

Watched the first episode of Chernobyl - chillingly factual and insane. Just like now, just like here. Lies so commonplace that the truth becomes hard to recognize. That is the fear.

 World: 13,070,590 - 572,428
US: 3,363,056 - 135,605 dead
Sweden: 75,826 - 5,536 dead
Russia:

Florida: 282,435 - 4,277 dead

Texas: 269,778 - 3,226 dead

July 14

......Bastille day. Did our wills. Got Jim's Yukon back. Took pictures for a headshot.

 World: 13,290,153 - 577,980
US: 3,431,574 - 136,466 dead
Sweden: 76,001 - 5,545 dead
Russia:

Florida: 291,629 - 4,409 dead

Texas: 279,577 - 3,362 dead 

July 15

Called Sinikka - wrote Jan. Lots of registration stuff and NSA meetings. Saw Whitney Cummings. Very funny. Had reversed the numbers of my LOFT order from 2328 to 2823 ... the recipient found me on Facebook and texted me.

 World: 13,516,656 - 583,359
US: 3,497,767 - 137,358 dead
Sweden: 76,492 - 5,572 dead
Russia:

Florida: 301,810 - 4,521 dead

Texas: 289,837 - 3,498 dead 

July 16

Did the comet cupboard with the North Texas Food Bank.

 World: 13,765,713 - 589,192
US: 3,574,371 - 138,339 dead
Sweden: 76,877 - 5,593 dead
Russia:

Florida: 315,775 - 4,677 dead

Texas: 305,854 - 3,657 dead 

July 17

The Old Guard with Charlize Theron - and Nile .. *happy sigh*

 World: 14,067,292 - 601,927
US: 3,647,237 - 139,255 dead
Sweden: 77,281 - 5,619 dead
Russia:

Florida: 327,241 - 4,805 dead

Texas: 317,290 - 3,809 dead 

July 18

Read in my book a little - she is moving time and things around as you do when you think and walk and remember in all directions at once. And the internal emotional reality gets mixed up with the external reality and what does it really matter if what you see is a painting or a person - afterwards you remember it the same or similarly. Reminded of Luanne Frank's suggestion that we not stop at the things we understand and recognize, but focus and spend time with the things that do not make sense, that do not resonate.

Simone Dinnerstein - circles - is like hearing Bach in technicolor from inside his head, pulsing, swirling, five dimensional, hot and heavy. A bit of a revelation.

Talked to mom for a while. She is overweight and out of breath, but of good cheer. I hope she gets her medicine figured out soon.

Cleaned out the pantry and went to In 'n Out for lunch and then to Container Store where there were too many people and we got some stuff but I got overwhelmed and a little panicky with people being too close. Put everything back in the pantry and watched four episodes of Doc Martin and had tuna.

Thinking about how to build bridges to the Trumpers, so they have a safe way from the sinking ship to shore. So they can abandon the cult and find capital useful outside of Donnyland. We have to help with that.

 World: 14,246,121 - 601,549 (don't ask - I don't understand it either)
US: 3,711,359 - 140,119 dead
Sweden: 77,281 - 5,619 dead
Russia:

Florida: 337,569 - 4,895 dead

Texas: 327,406 - 3,939 dead 

July 19

Got the mail. Took a nap. Watched three episodes of I'll be gone in the Dark which is gripping and a great love story. and then vacuumed and did some laundry and then went for a walk while Jim talked to Kim and it was nice as it always is to be out, to walk, to talk to the trees, and see the people. Then two episodes of Tudors.

 World: 14,457,916 - 605,205
US: 3,773,206 - 140,534 dead
Sweden: 77,281 - 5,619 dead
Russia:

Florida: 350,047 - 4,982 dead

Texas: 335,257 - 4,012 dead 

WTF continues - edition 17

July 6

I dunno. Days not have any structure. I wobble from thing to thing, always kinda on my way to later. Not enough sleep, but we did go out on the bicycles. Ordered jeans.  ICE came out with new rules about international students. Watched Sunset with Bruce Willis and James Garner.

 World: 11,593,181 - 537,487
US: 2,936,077 - 130,284 dead
Sweden: 73,061 - 5,433 dead
Russia:
Florida: 206,447 - 3,778 dead

Texas: 205,642 - 2,677 dead

July 7

Met  Magda on campus, took her picture and she cut my hair. Tried to go to the doctor, but didn't have an appointment. Another episode of Foyle's War - eerie similarities. They were waiting for a German invasion. Both of us were unnerved by the hypervigilance displayed by the shows characters.

 World: 11,799,443 - 543,558
US: 2,993,760 - 131,457 dead
Sweden: 73,344 - 5,447 dead
Russia:
Florida: 213,794 - 3,841 dead

Texas: 216,026 - 2,778 dead

July 8

Nothing new. Watched the Deep Sleep - with Bogart and Bacall - lovely.

 World: 12,041,480 - 549,468
US: 3,054,699 - 132,300 dead
Sweden: 73,858 - 5,482 dead
Russia:
Florida: 223,783 - 3,889 dead

Texas: 224,929 - 2,875 dead

July 9

Comet Cupboard with Sydney - Nils did the afternoon. Sent out the results of the TA survey. Remember that I had something last night I wanted to say. Maybe about the demons we are all fighting and do not know about - as in, we do not talk to each other, we shadow box, constantly. I saw it this morning in teh woman at the cash register who wondered what was wrong with me - nothing. I had been polite and friendly but she was paranoid and then she said it was all bad and God would sort it out. Outside a man came to take care of my cart and said another woman had told him to go away, to not come near her. His feelings were hurt. People are afraid again. So close to the surface.

 World: 12,238,034 - 554,360
US: 3,117,901 - 133,287 dead
Sweden: 74,333 - 5,500 dead
Russia: 706,240 - 10,826 dead
Florida: 232,718 - 4,009 dead

Texas: 236,541 - 3,006 dead

July 10

Worked and had lunch with Michele and talked to mom for a long time and had computer issues and watched the best of Hump.

 World: 12,498,467 - 560,209
US: 3,184,573 - 134,092 dead
Sweden: 74,898 - 5,526 dead
Russia:
Florida: 244,151 - 4,102 dead

Texas: 244,756 - 3,062 dead

July 11

Rachel hadn't read but we had a nice talk anyway. She told me about Axel and the flirty girl and different perspectives. Dry cleaners, frontline (vectra) for the cats, post office, Lauri to see her new car, Macy's for a bra and Michaels for rocks. A lovely nap. A silly Sherlock Holmes movie, Murder by Decree.

 World: 12,684,409 - 564,506
US: 3,245,925 - 134,777 dead
Sweden: 74,898 - 5,526 dead
Russia:

Florida: 254,511 - 4,197 dead

Texas: 254,415 - 3,138 dead

July 12

We did our taxes! Took all day, but we did 'em. and then I get ready to prepare for another week. Week eighteen. The fog intensifies. Yesterday we were all out and around people and today totally isolated. Someone said last week it will be January before we are back at work - I cannot imagine what the world will look like by then. It would be wonderful to inaugurate a new President with other people, but getting my hopes up for either is scary.

Florida's numbers are getting scary high and suddenly it becomes a reality that my brother - or his kids -  might get sick, might die. Or the Minnesotans or the FortWortheans ... so

My brain hurt like a warehouse, it had no room to spare
I had to cram so many things to store everything in there
And all the fat-skinny people, and all the tall-short people
And all the nobody people, and all the somebody people
I never thought I'd need so many people

 World: 12,875,496 - 568,528
US: 3,302,695 - 135,176 dead
Sweden: 74,898 - 5,526 dead
Russia:

Florida: 269,811 - 4,242 dead

Texas: 262,000 - 3,203 dead