Monday, May 25, 2020

Eleven eleven

May 25

Laundry, vacuuming and futzing about. Spent most of the day on Jim's computer.


 World: 5,495,061 - 346,232
US: 1,662,302 - 98,220 dead
Sweden: 33,843 - 4,029 dead
Russia:
Florida: 51,746 - 2,252 dead (908,235 tested)
Texas: 56,409 - 1,533 dead  (805,654 tested)


May 26

Work. Looong walk about David Bowie and the invisible fabric that connects us and feeds us, broken by the virus, repaired by music. The end of DCI Banks. Tired and out of sorts.


 World: 5,589,932 - 350,456
US: 1,681,212 - 98,916 dead
Sweden: 34,440 - 4,125 dead
Russia:
Florida: 52,255 - 2,252 dead (923,224 tested)
Texas: 57,230 - 1,546 dead  (821,233 tested)


May 27

Work. Info sheets and marketable skills. Today we officially hit 100'000 dead in the US.Wrote MW and was surprisingly sad.


 World: 5,695,155 - 355,688
US: 1,699,933 - 100,442 dead
Sweden: 35,088 - 4,220 dead
Russia:
Florida: 52,255 - 2,252 dead
Texas: 57,230 - 1,546 dead


May 28
lost the numbers. Talked to Kathleen who is now a life coach. Hmm.



May 29

The Beth thing. Went well, I think.


 World: 5,927,255 - 364,933
US: 1,747,087 - 102,836 dead
Sweden: 36,476 - 4,350 dead
Russia:
Florida: 54,497 - 2,413 dead
Texas: 61,630 - 1,635 dead


May 30

Talked to Mom. Made a yellow necklace. Jim slept a lot and worked on his computer. Loong walk.


 World: 6,063,588 - 369,244
US: 1,770,384 - 103,781 dead
Sweden: 37,113 - 4,395 dead
Russia:
Florida: 55,424 - 2,447 dead
Texas: 62,894 - 1,657 dead



May 31

Talked to Rachel - Milton again, to line 108, book seven. Talked to David. Made yellow earrings to go with the necklace. Riots across the country, but also police standing with the protestosrs. Another long walk.

 World: 6,166,978 - 372,037
US: 1,790,191 - 104,383 dead
Sweden: 37,542 - 4,395 dead
Russia: 405,843
Florida: 56,163 - 2,451 dead
Texas: 64,652 - 1,675 dead

Monday, May 18, 2020

WTF - ten for the price of everything

May 18


just a day like a day that was a day. Walked in the park with Jim and then walked home.

World: 4,805,005 - 318,534
US: 1,508,598 - 90,353 dead
Sweden: 30,377 - 3,698 dead
Russia:
Florida: 46,442 - 1,997 dead (676,412 tested)
Texas: 49,185 - 1,350 dead  (723,013 tested)


 May 19

I need to say things today, about how fragile identity is - how not having it reinforced by daily interactions with others frays it at the edges. and about how what is normally panic and unsettledness at 3 am in the morning, when everything seems off, is now the norm. The normal, the everyday, is now what comes in fleeting moments and so I struggle to hold myself together. I have an identity deficit and I withdraw into myself, to the pieces of me that are not dependent on other people, to the music that I mirrored myself in and that lets me feel the feelings. I listen to music like people eat vitamins.
Also, our identity is not an essence, it is made up of threads interwoven with other people and so when they are gone, when they die, they unweave part of us and we have to get together, tell stories and hug each other to reweave the pieces together - to darn our identities and relationships to each other.
Also, Rachel told me of a failed marriage - and I really don't know what to make of it, what to think, but find that that too tears my fabric a little.

 World: 4,897,567 - 323,286
US: 1,528,568 - 91,921 dead
Sweden: 30,799 - 3,743 dead
Russia:
Florida: 46,944 - 2,052 dead (715,855 tested)
Texas: 50,552 - 1,388 dead  (744,937 tested)


May 20

so much work, so many pieces missing and so much left to do, every day. Desperate to advise, enroll, support. Not much left for me to grow on, and yet. To focus on that gives me goals, something to do, something that matters and makes a difference. Beyond the tedium and sadness of isolation.

The bird baby is doing well at least. That makes me happy.


 World: 4,995,712 - 328,095
US: 1,551,853 - 91,921 dead
Sweden: 31,523 - 3,831 dead
Russia: 308,705 - 2,972
Florida: 47,471 - 2,096 dead (771,348 tested)
Texas: 51,673 - 1,426 dead  (770,241 tested)


May 21

snuck up to the office for a bit, Beth was there, Michael had left a CD in my mailbox. Got Halal food. Talked to Rachel for a bit, miss her. Got a new office chair and some clothes I had ordered from JJill. Listened to a talk about Islam.


 World: 5,102,424 - 332,924
US: 1,577,147 - 94,702 dead
Sweden: 32,172 - 3,871 dead
Russia:
Florida: 48,675 - 2,144 dead (813,929 tested)
Texas: 53,053 - 1,460 dead  (770,241 tested)


May 23

Not sure how Friday got missed, but there it is - missed. Ah well. Today lots of computer woes for the SO and Emporium Pies after dinner at In-n-Out. Mom told the same story twice - or was that yesterday?


 World: 5,311,624 - 342,105
US: 1,622,670 - 97,087 dead
Sweden: 33,188 - 3,992 dead
Russia: 335,882
Florida: 50,127 - 2,233 dead (856,437 tested)
Texas: 54,776 - 1,478 dead  (762,706 tested)


May 24

Talked with Rachel. Spent most of the day on Jim's computer.


 World: 5,408,301 - 345,064
US: 1,643,499 - 97,722 dead
Sweden: 33,459 - 3,998 dead
Russia:
Florida: 50,867 - 2,237 dead (871,235 tested)
Texas: 55,885 - 1,528 dead  (763,766 tested)

Monday, May 11, 2020

WTF - nine weeks now

May 11

got the stuff for beef fried rice.


World: 4,177,504 - 286,330
US: 1,347,881 - 80,682 dead
Sweden: 26,670 - 3,256 dead
Russia:
Florida: 40,596 - 1,735 dead (561,057 tested)
Texas - 40,555- 1,117 dead  (525,697 tested)


May 12

stopped by Michaels to get wire for the necklace. Made beef fried rice. Took a short walk for lunch and a long walk later. Mom did not answer her phone.

World: 4,261,955 - 291,964
US: 1,369,574 - 82,376 dead
Sweden: 27,272 - 3,313 dead
Russia: 232,243 - 2,116 dead
Florida: 41,923 - 1,779 dead (579,604 tested)
Texas: 41,432 - 1,146 dead  (525,697 tested)


May 13

Got stuff at Michaels to make earrings. Played Kahoots with the staff at the end of year Teams do.

World: 4,347,018 - 297,197
US: 1,390,406 - 84,119 dead
Sweden: 27,909- 3,460 dead
Russia:
Florida: 42,402 - 1,827 dead (594,763 tested)
Texas: 43,020 - 1,172 dead  (587,431 tested)


May 14

almost caught up ... well, you know ... almost

World: 4,442,163 - 302,418
US: 1,417,774 - 85,898 dead
Sweden: 28,582 - 3,529 dead
Russia:
Florida: 43,210 - 1,875 dead (608,837 tested)
Texas: 44,480 - 1,235 dead  (623,284 tested)


May 15

got the exit interviews out - and NO emails when I quit at six thirty. Hump.

World: 4,542,752 - 307,696
US: 1,443,188 - 87,559 dead
Sweden: 29,207- 3,646 dead
Russia:
Florida: 44,138 - 1,917 dead (608,837 tested)
Texas: 45,865 - 1,284 dead  (645,992 tested)


May 16

shredded things and finished another necklace. Talked to mom on Facebook. Felt sick for a while - runny nose and muscle ache - after a two hour nap things got better.

World: 4,634,132 - 311,781
US: 1,467,884 - 88,754 dead
Sweden: 29,677- 3,674 dead
Russia:
Florida: 44,811 - 1,964 dead (630,047 tested)
Texas: 47,452 - 1,318 dead  (678,471 tested)


May 17

Talked to Rachel. Went to Turner Falls. It was pretty. Made earrings.

World: 4,713,769 - 315,187
US: 1,486,757 - 89,562 dead
Sweden: 30,143 - 3,679 dead
Russia:
Florida: 45,588 - 1,973 dead (651,792 tested)
Texas: 48,396 - 1,343 dead  (693,276 tested)

Monday, May 04, 2020

WTF - week eight

https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html

May 4
Argh ... or something. The ongoing saga is going on and it is tiresome and exhausting. I keep registering people, so that is good. Got a short walk for lunch and then when Jim was on a conference call I did a one and a half mile walk in 30 minutes and listed ton 10CC and it was glorious.

World: 3,582,469 - 251,510
US: 1,180,288 - 68,922 dead
Sweden: 22,721 - 2,769 dead

Florida: 36,897 - 1,399 (444,270 tested)
Texas 32,783 - 901 dead  (407,398 tested)


May 5

Cinco de Mayo on Taco Tuesday - eh. The silliness continues, but I did have a chance to talk to Kendra for a bit and I went for another walk.


World: 3,663,824 - 257,239
US: 1,204,479 - 71,070 dead
Sweden: 23,216 - 2,854 dead
Russia 155,370 - 1,451 dead
Florida: 37,439 - 1,471 dead
Texas 33,912 - 925 dead  (407,398 tested)



May 6

Did a test run for the LIVE event tomorrow. Got the catalog language for the degrees and actually learned a bit. Got VPN access installed. Talked to Anna F about her proposal. Got the list of graduating folks and prepared the "exit interview" file.

World: 3,755,341 - 263,831
US: 1,228,603 - 73,431 dead
Sweden: 23,918 - 2,941 dead

Florida: 38,002 - 1,539 dead (480,051 tested)
Texas 34,928 - 954 dead  (438,938 tested)


May7

Town Hall went okay. Performance review went okay. Focus on professional development of PhDs and numbers/alums/recruiting. Did the walking again.


World: 3,846,861 - 269,584
US: 1,256,972 - 75,670 dead
Sweden: 24,623 - 3,040 dead

Florida: 38,8258 - 1,600 dead (492,950 tested)
Texas 36,047 - 985 dead  (455,162 tested)


May 8

Got closer on the catching up. Lunch with Michele. Town hall with all faculty and staff. Wonderful to see a hundred people present and talking. The discussion of RIF is scary as shit, but hopefully can be avoided. There is a part of me realizing a horrid thing - My brain will not process the really scary stuff and how real it is even for others because I am terrified even to be close to the fear and the helplessness and so my brain shuts off. I am sorry my empathy is limited - I am just terrified.

A bit shorter but still walk, with Marianne Faithful, then to Terry Blacks for barbeque. So fucking bizarre to be out in the world and realize how empty it is, how quiet. In between, the places that are open, that try to serve food or stuff and people are trying to be out and be normal but half of the people and all of the staff are wearing masks.

World: 3,939,119 - 274,917
US: 1,283,929 - 77,180 dead
Sweden: 25,265 - 3,175 dead

Florida: 39,199 - 1,669 dead (513,341 tested)
Texas 37,246 - 1,025 dead  (477,118 tested)


May 9

We started the day with Hannah's Zoom memorial, and then went to McKinney where Jim talked to a client and I went for a wonderful soothing walk. Hannah's spirit was in the grass and the trees and the birds and there was peace.
Then we went home for some lunch and then Grace in Gateway park and then sweets from 85 degrees and then the Godfather. It was a good day.

World: 4,024,973 - 279,321
US: 1,309,541 - 78,794 dead
Sweden: 25,921 - 3,220 dead

Florida: 40,001 - 1,715 dead (527,731 tested)
Texas 38,394 - 1,066 dead  (489,294 tested)



May 10

Called Rachel who was really not up for talking too much. Then talked to mom. Made breakfast. Went random for a bit and then Jim took a nap and me too for a little bit, but I got up coz I was anxious and sent out the PhD degree plans and that took too long and then it took a some time to recover and then we went by the storage space and ended up getting pizza for dinner and then watched another episode of DCI Banks.


World: 4,101,699 - 282,709
US: 1,329,260 - 79,526 dead
Sweden: 26,322 - 3,225 dead
Russia: 209,688 - 1,915 deead
Florida: 40,596 - 1,721 dead (538,948 tested)
Texas 39,258 - 1,094 dead  (501,776 tested)



Monday, April 27, 2020

WFT - week seven

 https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html


April 27

Made a quick trip to the office to pick up a student file, got some groceries and dropped them off at the police station at the same time and picked up my headphones. Left a pink flamingo in Beth's chair and blueberries for Michael (who was there). Got my camera and monitor and docking station and teamug and got it all home and washed the car on the way. Listened to NPR on the way - THINK about successful aging. Good stuff.

World: 3,041,764 - 211,167
US: 988,197 - 56,259 dead
Sweden: 18,926 - 2,274 dead
Florida: 32,138 - 1,088 (356,463 tested)
Texas 25,321 - 666 dead  (290,517 tested)


April 28

There was a storm and I battened down the hatches and closed the computer and did not get any numbers. Rain and winds and no damage.



April 29

meeting about Beth's retirement celebration - admin meeting - student meetings - grad group meeting - student meetings. Jim went out for a couple of hours and I had more Halal Guys lunch and a short nap and then worked on the degree plans and got quite far and then Michael wrote and asked about Hannah and I broke.

World: 3,193,961 - 227,638
US: 1,039,909 - 60,966 dead
Sweden: 20,302 - 2,462 dead
Florida: 33,193 - 1,218 (373,488 tested)
Texas 27,257 - 754 dead  (314,790 tested)


April 30

So do I take one of the ten spots at the funeral even though I do not feel like I was that close? Is that fair? Got the MA degree plans out for review.


World: 3,257,088 - 233,398
US: 1,069,664 - 63,006 dead
Sweden: 21,092 - 2,586 dead
Russia 106,498 - 1,073 dead
Florida: 33,690 - 1,268 (382,405 tested)
Texas 28,727 - 812 dead  (314,790 tested)



May 1

Got the PhD degree plans out for review. and some other stuff.


World: 3,344,099 - 238,663
US: 1,103,781 - 64,956 dead
Sweden: 21,520 - 2,653 dead

Florida: 34,728 - 1,314 (402,699 tested)
Texas 29,834 - 841 dead  (351,775 tested)


May 2
Hannah's funeral - Titus streaming. Thought about the importance of funerals - both to process that someone is gone but also for the community to weave an network of stories across the gulf of their absence.


World: 3,428,422 - 243,829
US: 1,133,069 - 66,385 dead
Sweden: 22,082 - 2,669 dead

Florida: 35,463 - 1,364 (416,012 tested)
Texas 31,140 - 861 dead  (380,648 tested)


May 3
Dad's 83 birthday. Talked to Rachel, and Annika, and mom. Got Subway and ate in the park. Got the mail and my n-400 has been received -YAY.


World: 3,506,729 - 247,470
US: 1,158,040 - 67,682 dead
Sweden: 22,317 - 2,679 dead

Florida: 36,078 - 1,379 (428,189 tested)
Texas 31,998 - 878 dead  (390,560 tested)

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

WTF week six - like really?

https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html

April 20

Emails, and emails, and a walk and a nap for lunch and then more emails Did the sheets and had baked potato for dinner. Spoke to MW for a bit, to ask about a student and get some advice.
I don't have the energy to think much, except for short bursts of insight - like how it would be nice with god because it is so helpful with someone who can take it all in, for whom my issues are not a bother, someone who takes the long perspective on things. The rest is spent not panicking and nesting and dealing with the details of everything that is changing.

World: 2,476,916 - 170,297
US: 786,968 - 42,308 dead
Sweden: 14,777 - 1,580 dead
Florida: 27,058 - 823 (266,225 tested)
Texas 20,083 - 520 dead  (190,394 tested)


April 21

Last episode of George Gently. Holocaust Remembrance Day. So little to say about anything.

I figured something out about aging, and why we end up thinking that things are changing and different and more dangerous than before because when we are young we can read what is going on and understand the signals and what they mean and how to respond, but as you age you get out less and cannot read the interactions as well and they get threatening.

Also, we took a walk and it is fascinating to see how we are learning to communicate with distancing rules - we have to translate the new rules.

World: 2,564,038 - 177,424
US: 824,889 - 45,042 dead
Sweden: 1,322 - 1,765 dead
Florida: 27,869 - 867 (277,059 tested)
Texas 20,921 - 545 dead  (205,399 tested)


April 22

Long day - admin meeting, grad meeting, track meeting, and students. Working on a letter to the translation student and cleaning up the degree plans. My box of salt licorice came in. Will have to put in small packages and hide the rest. Benson gave a town hall and said we haven't yet looked at furlowing or firing .... meaning it is out there. Apparently some people want a discount if the fall classes are online and they want a refund on the parking fee. I understand when people are hard up, but that is a way to long term support the buildings and features so that there is something to come back to.


World: 2,647,512 - 184,372
US: 842,624 -  46,785 dead
Sweden: 16,004 - 1,927 dead
Florida: 28,586 - 927 (288,627 tested)
Texas 21,774 - 569 dead  (216,783 tested)


April 23

Went to the store, pretty well stocked. Good supply of toilet paper. Short walk for lunch and then some stress - not sure why, don't think it was mine.


World: 2,708,885 - 190,858
US: 869,170 -  49,954 dead
Sweden: 16,755 - 2,021 dead
Florida: 29,648 - 987 (x tested)
Texas 22,650 - 604 dead  (x tested)

April 24

The student who now wishes we had not give them a degree. The faculty who insist on reading information in a very particular manner that has only a parting likeness to reality. If only I could just do my job.

Oh Oh, the orange man had suggested we might find a way to put like Lysol on the inside and clean the lungs ... or just sunlight, yanno. And I am thinking I really, really want to figure out how to deal with folks reaction to cognitive dissonance. How to help us break free from remaining committed to the ideas we have attached to ourselves.

World: 2,790,986 - 195,920
US: 890,524 -  51,017 dead
Sweden: 17,567 - 2,152 dead
Florida: 30,174 - 1,012 (301,147 tested)
Texas 22,842 - 608 dead  (225,078 tested)


April 25

Called Annika and then tried my godmother and then talked with David. Was going to sit outside, but a bird is nesting in the planter so we are staying away. Had breakfast and took a nap together and went out and went for lunch at Kearn's something or other and got stuff to make negroni's and a new waterfilter for the fridge and did something else useful and watched JCS and I cried and cried like always. John Legend such an impressive range - and whoever did Judas, did really good.

World: 2,896,746 - 202,880
US: 939,053 -  53,755 dead
Sweden: 18,177 - 2,192 dead
Florida: 30,839 - 1,055 (333,099 tested)
Texas 24,153 - 638 dead  (225,078 tested)


April 26

Made my necklace - and now I know how to make Negroni's too.

World: 2,971,669 - 206,549
US: 965,942 -  54,883 dead
Sweden: 18,640 - 2,194 dead
Florida: 31,532 - 1,075 (344,613 tested)
Texas 24,967 - 651 dead  (276,021 tested)

Sunday, April 19, 2020

WTF week five

https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html

April 13

Monday - first day of registration. So many emails. SO many emails. GSA meeting went well though.

World: 1,920,618 - 119,687 dead

US: 582,607 - 23,628 dead
Sweden:10,948 - 919 dead
Florida: 21,019 - 499 dead  (196,207 tested)
Texas: 14,505 - 317 dead  (133,226 tested)


April 14

I don't even have anything to say about today. Too much, too long. Too tired. But I did talk to Annika who said they are moving to the new immuno therapy on Valborg. 


World: 1,981,239 - 126,681 dead

US: 609,240 - 26,033 dead
Sweden:11,445 - 1,033 dead
Florida: 21,628 - 571 dead  (203,180 tested)
Texas: 15,342 - 362 dead  (146,467 tested)


April 15

Another long day with more crazy from the PCs. But I did get talked to a number of students and I feel like I understand some of what I am supposed to do and finished at 8 with only four unanswered emails. Yay. Except one of my student's partner's dad died last weekend (from covid) and there is talk of people getting reinfected - that would seriously suck.



World: 2,064,115 - 137,020 dead

US: 639,055 - 30,925 dead
Sweden: 11,927 - 1,203 dead
Florida: 22,511 - 596 dead  (213,509 tested)
Texas: 16,289 - 390 dead  (151,810 tested)


April 16

A better day, I guess. Went to Target and got a frame and lights for the balcony. Yeah. Rulonna sent a link to a talk by a Harvard ethicist.

World: 2,158,033 - 144,243
US: 671,331 = 33,284 dead
Sweden: 12,540 - 1,333 dead
Florida: 23,340 - 668 dead  (219,248 tested)
Texas: 17,235 - 427 dead  (158,547 tested)


April 17

NR joined us for the daily talk. Not much of anything (except it seems he has already had discussions with some staff about salary increases .. not now, but when they are available. I don't have time to have anything to say .... our masks arrived today, from Leathermasters.

World: 2,243,710 - 154,215
US: 701,610 = 37,055 dead
Sweden: 13,216 - 1,400 dead
Florida: 24,759 - 726 dead  (239,982 tested)
Texas: 18,074 - 456 dead  (169,536 tested)


April 18

We drove to the post office and picked up a book and T-shirts from Esther's Follies, went to the store I think and came home for lunch - pizza part two. Cleaned out Jim's box of cables and watered all the plants.


World: 2,329,681 - 160,721
US: 735,086 - 38,910 dead
Sweden: 13,822 - 1,511 dead
Florida: 25,492 - 748 dead  (? tested)
Texas: 18,905 - 483 dead  (? tested)


April 19

Milton - who is in a really kinda boring place right now. A whole page about all the jewels encrusted on the throne of the filial godhead. *sigh*
Went to see Lauri for afternoon drinks and pastries for 85 degrees in Koreatown. Got my pictures up!!! and did some of the laundry.

World: 2,404,071 - 165,229
US: 735,086 - 38,910 dead
Sweden: 14,385 - 1,540 dead
Florida: 26,31
18,905 - 500 dead  (182,710 tested)

Wednesday, April 08, 2020

WTF week four

The dashboard is here https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html 

April 6

Monday - finally got a spreadsheet together with data about the programs. Think I know the rules now. Sent a few questions to John. Talked to Annika who was doing okay but is working at 80%. Joanna is thrilled with her program and it sounds so very right for her.

Took a short walk and think maybe we'll try for the store tomorrow.

World: 1,346,9299 - 74,679 dead

US: 368,079 - 10,908 dead
Sweden: 7,206 - 152 dead
Florida: 13,629 - 254 dead
Texas?

April 7

Went to the store at 7:30 and they had toilet paper. Glad about that. Turns out the PCs are really wanting me to work for them, not John - not that simple but close. Talked to Mom and Jonas - he has not been outside the house even to take out the trash for 10 days. Arrgh.

World: 1,430,141 - 82,119 dead

US: 398,809 - 12,895 dead
Sweden: 7,693 - 591 dead
Florida: 14,747 - 296 dead
Texas: 9,187 - 175 dead



April 8

Long day with admin meeting, faculty meeting, Grad group meeting and meetings with Alice and Kendra. Nothing important happened, which is just as well. Talked to mom, maybe. Toward the end of the day I got her a subscription to Aret Runt. Paid all the bills. Bernie Sanders dropped out of the presidential race.


World: 1,484,811 - 88,538 dead

US: 432,132 - 14,817 dead
Sweden: 8,419 - 687 dead
Florida: 15,698 - 323 dead
Texas: 10,076 - 193 dead

April 9

Got a new vaccum. Meetings, meetings, meetings.


World: 1,600,427 - 95,699 dead

US: 465,329 - 16,672 dead
Sweden: 9,141 - 793 dead
Florida: 16,826 - 371 dead
Texas: 11,259 - 213 dead

April 10

Worked on the website, our degree plans, talked to Alice, went to MicroFry so Jim could by an Ipad mini. He likes it I think. Responded to Charles on Teams, had a Manhattan and read on the balcony. I liked that. Jim came out and played with his Ipad while I read. We both liked that, I think.


World: 1,698,271 - 102,753 dead

US: 501,301 - 16,672 dead
Sweden: 9,685 - 870 dead
Florida: 17,968 - 419 dead
Texas: 12,380 - 248 dead

April 11

stuff done - not sure what. Got dinner from Terry Black's - so very, very good.


April 12

Milton, of course. "hollow cubes - hollow men." Got nail clippers for the cats and fixed Nietzsche's ingrown claw - very proud and happy.


World: 1,850,220 - 114,215 dead

US: 557,300 - 22,0779 dead
Sweden:10,483 - 899 dead
Florida: 19,895 - 461 dead  (182,753 tested)
Texas: 13,807 - 292 dead  (124,533 tested)

Sunday, April 05, 2020

WTF week three

The dashboard is here https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html 

March 30

Today's numbers

World: 782,365

US: 161,807 - 2,978 dead
Sweden: 4,028
Texas: 3,147
Florida: 5,473

Students came back to school - remotely - and we made a few more steps on getting together information about the new degree plans out to students. Jim helped me set up a table in the guest bedroom, so now I have a real office with a second monitor. I also took the second office chair from his office and now have a real, comfortable chair. It really helps.


March 31

Today's numbers

World: 801,400 857,487

US: 164,610 188,172 - 3,170 3,873 dead
Sweden: 4,028 4,435
Texas: 3,339 3,809
Florida: 5,704 6,741

 Life does feel a bit repetitive, which is boring, and I find myself just surviving rather than enjoying things, hunkered down, waiting. There is very little planning, and I think I need to start projecting into the future a little, whether it is this summer or fall or next year.


April 1

World: 937,170

US: 216,515 - 5,119 dead
Sweden: 4,947
Texas: 4,607
Florida: 7,773

Today was just about about powering through it. The numbers are up, and the reality comes in waves.


April 2

today I got really really dizzy, enough that I had to lay down for a couple of hours. Then did the last MA portfolio defense which went well - they were kind and generous. We got cat litter and tapezole for Sigmund - yes, we now have two cats with hyperthyroidism. Bleah.

World: 1,013,157 -52,983 dead

US: 243,453 - 5,926 dead
Sweden: 5,568 - 308 dead
Texas: 5,069
Florida: 9,008

April 3

Saw the Hunt tonight - really really really strange, but also good. So weird to realize that something that was fiction and can be turned off is less strange than the reality that when we were at Target tonight there were people wearing masks and we were afraid of getting too close to them for fear they will give us a deadly virus. So fucking bizarre.

World: 1,099,389 - 58,901 dead

US: 277,953 - 7,152 dead
Sweden: 6,131 - 358 dead
Texas: 6,025 - 104 dead
Florida: 10,268

April 4

Went to McDonalds for breakfast. Got the mail in Arlington and stopped by Tony on the way back. Went through my closet to figure out what I had done with the beads to make a necklace - cannot find them, but cleaned the closet a bit.

World: 1,196,553 - 64,549 dead

US: 308,533 - 8,376 dead
Sweden: 6,443 - 373 dead
Texas: 6,555 - 116 dead
Florida: 11,545

April 5

Mom's birthday - talked to her, tried to call Inger, talked to David for a bit. Very slow day, but I did get a translation ordered for the divorce decree and did two loads of laundry.


World: 1,274,923 - 69,479 dead

US: 337,620 - 9,647 dead
Sweden: 6,830 - 401 dead
Texas: 7,288 - 139 dead
Florida: 12,350 - 221

Monday, March 30, 2020

WTF week two

The dashboard is here https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html 

March 28

I just lost a whole week of posts - so so very frustrating, but I am trying to not obsess.

The numbers:
World: 615,519 652,079 664,608

US: 104,860 116,505 124,377
Sweden: 3,069 3,447
Texas: 3,198 2,343 2,523
Florida: 2,009 3,763 4,038 doubling from morning to evening

We started the week with numbers a third of that. Mom left Portugal on Monday and arrived home on Tuesday night. We watched Spenser Confidential and that was pretty good.
Trevor Noah and Jimmy Fallon are both doing home editions of their shows - very helpful.
We learned Webex this week and used it for several portfolio and dissertation defenses. Thursday I stopped panicking constantly and found some sort of zen calm that mostly stays with me. Except this afternoon I spent almost three hours rooting through old paperwork, with some vague idea I might somewhere have the divorce decree from 1998 - yeah, no. In a total trance state, digging through everything.


March 29

World: 710,918

US: 135,499
Sweden: 3,700
Texas: 2,561
Florida: 4,246

Talked to Rachel. Talked to Mom. Had breakfast. Took a nap, but panicked a little. Don't remember if I took my medicine last night. Bleah.



Monday, March 23, 2020

WTF

March 15

I was supposed to start writing this on March 1, the night after I had had a terrible nightmare, likely induced by a combination of having the flu, not taking my mood medication, and watching Parasite the evening before. In the dream, something evil was after me, or maybe someone ... or several someones, .. and they knew where I was. I woke up to get away, woke up in a sweat, with a sense of foreboding. Waking up, I knew there were things I should write down, a story to tell about some important insight.

It is gone now, that insight, but what with what is going on in the world around us I thought I had better write anyway. Thursday the president of my university decided to extend spring break an extra week in order to take all classes online. Today they added that staff will not go in, will be working remotely as best as we can. As of today there are, according to the Johns Hopkins coronavirus dashboard (see here https://coronavirus.jhu.edu/map.html ) 3,774 confirmed cases i the US and 1,032 in Sweden.

Low grade fear; the tiger is out there, we know they will attack but not how many, not how severely, nor exactly what precautions are reasonable to take or what the long term consequences will be. The constant changes are unsettling, but we know there will be more, but not when or what.


March 16


Went in to the office for a while. Set up the away message on my answering machine and talked a little with the few people there. We so very much wanted to hug, to tell each other that we will be safe, that it will all work out. Today we are at 4,442 4,464 4,661cases in the US and 1,103 1,121 in Sweden.


Went to the store to get stuff for meatloaf, but there was no meat, so we got stuff for tuna salad. Lots of people in the store, polite but a little scared, all of us. A few of them closer to the panic, getting just a bit short, getting ready to hit back if pushed. Getting back from the store we learn that all restaurants have been ordered to do take out or delivery only - no dine in. CDC guidelines now say no groups larger than 50 people, Friday (or maybe Saturday) it was no groups larger than 500.

An hour later the recommendation is no more than 10 people together.

March 17

Worldwide we now have over 190,000 (196,979 at 6 pm) cases - 5,702 6,233 in the US and 1,190 in Sweden. We went to the bank this morning (to make sure we have access to money if the banks close) and they were open, but have people coming in twice a day to wipe all surfaces. In the afternoon our dentist closed up shop until April.

Started watching Tommy on CBS - better than it might have been and after two episodes we like it.

March 18

Today we got takeaway food from Taco Bell and I got my oil change. My stomach is upset and I have a little bit of a fever, 99.8. The US number is 7,769 9,249 and 1,279 1,301 in Sweden. Worldwide the tally is 217,977. Today at midnight Tarrant County will follow Dallas and Collin in closing dine in services (finally).

March 19

we had our daily meeting and it really does help, even if no one had anything specific to add today.
The case numbers this morning are 229,289 240,119 242,191 244,421 globally, 10,755 11,274 13,159 14,250 in the US and 1,439 in Sweden. Work today went better than expected - as we get used to the new technology and new way of doing things there will be a new normal as people get sick around us.

March 20

Mom was supposed to go back to Sweden today, but when she got to the airport her flight had been cancelled - with no notice. She is stuck in Portugal for now, doing okay, but it is a bit stressful. The case numbers this morning are 255,305 258,419 275, 429 globally, 14,631 16,638 19,624 in the US, 1,639 in Sweden and, since mom is still there, I need to note that in Portugal today there are 1,020 cases. We went to my office to rescue my plants and get a scanner. That little outing went well, but it is a bit weird to walk through the empty building and say goodbye to my office and not know when I can come back. The leaves are budding and it will be a beautiful spring on an empty campus.

March 21

Saturday I got my plants organized and we went to check the mailbox and then drove to Oak Cliff to get pie from Emporium Pies - they had set up an impromptu drive through and we got pie and drove back home and stopped at the grocery store and hung around and I made chicken for dinner and we watched CSI Miami and then things felt almost normal until I turned my computer on ... Worldwide, the cases are 304,544 and out of that 25,493 are in the US, 1,763 cases in Sweden and 1,280 in Portugal.

March 22

Sunday. Talked to Rachel for two hours and then briefly with mom. House chores and then coffee in teh park with Lauri. Came home to the news that Dallas county is now under a shelter-at-home warning. Worldwide number 336,004 and the US has 33,276. In Sweden the number is 1,934 and in Portugal 1,600. 627 in Texas and 830 in Florida. FFS.

Friday, June 05, 2015

Early Modern Swedish Women Writers

 Agneta Horn (1629-1672)
   Leverne (dagbok - https://litteraturbanken.se/forfattare/HornA )

Sophia Elizabeth Brenner (1659-1730)
   Poetiska Dikter
   Den Svenska Jordegumman


Hedwig Charlotta Nordenflycht (1718-1763)
   Den sorjande Turturduvan
   Frumtimrets forsvar Emot JJ Rousseau

Anna Maria Rückerschöld (1725-1805)
  cookbooks and more

Anna Johanna Grill (1753-1809)
  Resedagbok frÃ¥n England ( https://litteraturbanken.se/forfattare/GrillAJ/titlar/Resedagbok/sida/1/faksimil )

Anna Maria Lenngren (1754-1817)
  Nagra ord till min kara dotter, ifall jag hade nagon

Marta Helena Reenstierna (
  Arstafruns dagbok

Malla Montgomery Silverstolpe (1782-1861)

   memoirs of salons

Julia Christina Nyberg (1785-1854) a.k.a. Euphrosyne

Fredrika Bremer (1801-1865)

Wilhelmina Gravallius (1809-1884)

Marie Sophie Schwartz (1819-1884)

Sophie von Knorring ( 1797-1848)

Emily Flygare-Carlen (1802-1892)

Sophie Leijonhufvud Adlersparre (1823-1895)

Per Daniel Amadeus Atterbom said:
"Sometimes nature itself makes exceptions and puts positive, masculine genius in a female body. From this anomaly come educated women, artists, and heroines, of whom three or four have justifiably  won the world's admiration. Their lot, however, is not to be desired. They must surrender all claim to female happiness."

http://nordicwomensliterature.net/
Carl och Edvard Carlsson Sedolärande Mercurius (1730-31)
Olof Dalin Then Swänska Argus (1732-34)

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

postings


Academic

Thiel College
The Department of History at Thiel College invites applications for a full-time, tenure-track Assistant Professor in European History, with a preference for the early modern or modern era.  In addition, a secondary field in public history, women and gender history, or a non-Western area is preferred.  The candidate will participate in teaching in the Department and Thiel College’s Seminar series.  The position offers attractive opportunities for collaboration, exploration, and curriculum development in a liberal arts college context.
The teaching load is four courses per semester, and includes responsibility for courses in European history, SEMS 200: Western Traditions, and specialized courses in the candidate’s field of interest.  A Ph.D. in History is required by the date of hire for appointment as Assistant Professor.  Demonstrated successful college teaching experience, evidence of scholarship, and excellent communication skills are also required.

Bloomfield College
The Division of Humanities invites applications for a tenure-track position at the rank of Assistant Professor of World History. The ideal candidate will have a geographic focus in either Africa or Europe.  A secondary area of interest and experience in Women and Gender Studies and/or Public History is preferable. Candidates must have a Ph.D. in History at date of appointment and be able to demonstrate a strong commitment to teaching.

Northwest Missouri State
Primary Duties: To teach courses in Early-Modern and Modern European History, including courses in Western Civilization and upper-division and graduate courses. Upper-division teaching load may include courses in Russian History, Eastern Europe, the Middle East, and Research Methods. Successful candidates will demonstrate a strong commitment to teaching within a comprehensive state university, student and university service, and the promise of scholarly achievement. August 2015 start date.

University of Kentucky
The Department of Gender and Women’s Studies at the University of Kentucky seeks applications for a full-time, tenure track, assistant professorship to begin August 2015 with teaching and research interests such as but not limited to transnational feminisms, masculinities, and transgender studies. We seek candidates who can participate fully in the research, teaching, and service of the Department of Gender and Women’s Studies. We are searching for an innovative teacher who can teach a broad range of required core courses in our undergraduate and graduate curriculum including large-lecture introductory classes. Candidates are expected to have a Ph.D. in hand or by August 2015. A Ph.D. or a graduate certificate/concentration, in feminist studies/gender and women’s studies is preferred. Applicants must demonstrate exceptional promise as scholars and teachers, as well as a strong commitment to departmental and university service. We offer an undergraduate major and minor program, a graduate certificate, and a Ph.D. The Gender and Women’s Studies Department encourages research and teaching collaborations with other interdisciplinary networks, departments, and programs.

Saint Xavier University
The Department of History and Political Science at Saint Xavier University seeks a full-time, tenure-track assistant professor in European history beginning Fall 2015.  Area of specialization is open; however, the department desires a candidate who can contribute broadly to the departmental and university curriculum. Responsibilities include teaching the two-semester world history survey, a survey of modern Europe, and other courses in the candidate’s areas of expertise and interest. The successful candidate will exhibit a strong commitment to innovative undergraduate teaching and advising, scholarly productivity, and broad service to the department and university. A Ph.D. in history is required by the start of the appointment. Teaching experience preferred. A working knowledge of instructional technology and learning outcomes assessment is desired.



Administrative
European Studies Librarian
The European Studies Librarian is a tenure track library faculty position in the Humanities and Social Sciences Library (Library West). The ESL assesses needs and establishes outreach to the students and faculty of the Department of Languages, Literatures, and Cultures, as well as providing in-depth consultations and engaging in user evaluation and analysis to stay abreast of needs and departmental focus. Responsible for the overall development, management and coordination of the George A. Smathers Libraries resources in all formats for the European languages, literatures and cultures collections (Spanish, French, Italian, and Portuguese). This position supports the University’s academic program in these subject areas as well as in interdisciplinary humanities programs supported by the University’s College of Liberal Arts and Sciences. Responsible for analyzing the University’s program in Languages, Literatures and Cultures and collaborating with librarians and the academic faculty to establish collection profiles, selection guidelines, and preservation, location and cataloging priorities. Evaluates existing collection strengths and current collecting intensities. Provides specialized reference services and library instruction for the study of European languages and cultures.  In collaboration with the Arabic, Germanic, Slavic Studies Librarian and others, acts as Libraries’ liaison to the various Centers on campus. Provides general reference and instruction services to students, faculty, staff, and visitors at the Library West Research Assistance Desk, as well as online through the Ask-A-Librarian chat and texting service, email and via telephone queries.


Renaissance Society of America
The Executive Director is the chief administrative officer of the RSA. Duties include the administration and oversight of the daily operations of the Society, office personnel, the Society’s website, and RSA’s program activities, which include several book series and Renaissance News and Notes. Renaissance Quarterly has its own editors for articles and reviews, but the Executive Director oversees its general management, working with the representatives of the University of Chicago Press. The Executive Director will know the constitution and by-laws of the Society and over time will embody the institutional memory of the Society. He or she will represent the interests of the RSA to the like-minded organizations represented in the American Council of Learned Societies, as well as to regulatory bodies, the media, and the broader educational community. He or she works with the Board and office staff to assess members’ needs; creates and implements programs and services of value and interest to existing and prospective members; develops strategies for membership recruitment and retention; manages member relations and communications. He or she collaborates with the Board on staffing requirements, organizational management, and the effectiveness of overall operations.




Tuesday, July 08, 2014

area places and events

To do with Rachel:

https://www.dallasinternationaldistrict.com/events - Sept 9, Sept 14

https://www.mgm.com/movies/bottoms


Pizza:

  • Cane Rosso is the most prolific restaurant on the D-FW map, with Neapolitan restaurants in Arlington, Carrollton, Dallas, Frisco and Fort Worth.
  • Cavalli Pizza made the list for its family-owned Neapolitan-style pies in Irving.
  • Pizza Leila, a newcomer in downtown Dallas that sells pies in a grab-and-go setting, is D-FW’s only Sicilian pizza shop on the list.
  • Partenope



Eating:

Afrah Mediterranean Restaurant and Pastries
314 E Main St
Richardson, TX 75081

Gogogiri
17421 Preston Rd. 
from 11 am-4 pm and 5-9 pm

Jeng Chi Chinese
400 N. Greenville Ave. #11
Richardson, TX 75081

Tampopo - japanese

6130 Greenville Ave
Dallas, TX 75206

No 1 Plus Chicken
2240 Royal Ln #211
Dallas, TX 75229 (972) 488-9100

Bubba's Cooks Country (Chicken)
6617 Hillcrest Ave
Dallas, TX 75205 (214) 373-6527

The POT Baked Potato Bar, 1639 South Blvd. 

Tuesday – Friday, 11 a.m. – 6 p.m.; Saturday, 11 a.m. – 4 p.m.

Chang Jing Korean BBQ
400 N Greenville Ave
Richardson, TX 75081

Kalachandji - vegan
5430 Gurley Ave
Dallas, TX

Mot Hai Ba
 6047 Lewis Street
Dallas, TX 75206
(Lakewood)

Bistro B - vietnamese
9780 Walnut St #340, 
Dallas, TX 75243

Euro Deli
670 Coit Road,
Richardson, TX, 75080
972-234-8052

Kirin Court - dim sum
221 W Polk St
Ste 210
Richardson, TX 75081

Taste of Europe
1901 W. Pioneer Parkway
Arlington, TX 76013

(817) 275-5530 


Signature dishes
http://blogs.dallasobserver.com/cityofate/2014/07/the_rime_of_the_ancient_marinara.php

http://blogs.dallasobserver.com/cityofate/100_favorite_dishes/

http://dallas.eater.com/maps/map-classic-old-school-oldest-dallas-restaurants


To Do:

Butterfly House Discovery Tour
11:00 a.m. first Sat. of every month
3601 Martin Luther King Jr Blvd. Dallas, TX
214-428-7476

Sons of Hermann Hall
Swing Dancing every Wednesday 9-12 pm
3414 Elm St. Dallas, TX 75226
214-747-4422
 
Sur La Table cooking classes
http://www.surlatable.com/
4527 Travis Street, Suite A
Dallas, Texas 75205
214-219-4479

http://www.greekfestivalofdallas.com/
9-26 - 9/28

Thursday, November 07, 2013

Clippings on Carter



The above from The Gentleman's Magazine, and Historical Chronicle, for the Year 1854, Volume 195, page 551

Reverend Nicolas Carter, perpetual curate of Deal Chapel, an accomplished linguist and author of several pamphlets. His first wife was Margaret Swayne, an heiress who is supposed to have married with a fortune of £15,000 which she lost in the South Sea Bubble in 1720. After she died in 1728?, Nicolas Carter married again. His second wife was Mary Bean.







The above taken from Church History of Kent: from the earliest period to the year MDCCCLVIII, by Thomas Timpson. pages 411-12.



BEHOLD a Lady floating on the surface of Theology! The lightness of her dress keeps her above water--ah! no--she sinks--stretch out a pitying hand to save her--she's gone! Seriously, this female Mind, if it is really a female Mind, would have been much better employed in attending the progress of Pickles and Conserves than in pursuing those abstruse enquiries, which require a depth of erudition, and a reach of thought, that few Ladies can attain.       --from  The Monthly Review; or, Literary Journal, by several hands. London: R. Griffith, 1764, p. 237

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Elizabeth Carter 1717 - 1806

Family
Father was Nicholas Carter
Mother was Margaret, only daughter .and heiress of Richard Swayne *, Esq. by a daughter of Thomas Trenchard, of Wolverton, and Lychet Maltravers, Esq.

With Margaret dad had Elizabeth, John Carter who left three daughters, and Margaret who married Thomas Pennington and left Thomas (Rector of x) and Montagu. Also Nicholas and James who both died early.
With  Mary he had Mary, married to Andrew Douglas, and Henry  (Rector of x)

Chronology (some from EB 1911):
    1734 first publication - verses by 'Eliza' in the Gentleman's Magazine
    1738-39 in London w Birch and Johnson
    1738 Poems upon Particular Occasions
    1739 translation of Crousaz's An Examination of Mr. Pope's Essay on Man
    1739 translation of Algarotti's Sir Isaac Newton's Philosophy explained for the use of the Ladies, in six Dialogues on Light and Colour
     1739 - in June - Carter supposedly leaves London abrubtly ... (Hawley? Ruhe?)
     1741 First meeting / letters w Miss Talbot
     1747 ‘Ode to Wisdom’ in Gentleman's Magazine, corrected version after Richardson's theft
     1750 Rambler 44
     1751 Rambler 100    

     1753?   Remarks on the Athanasian Creed; on a sermon preached at the parish church of Deal, October 15, 1752; and on a pamphlet, lately published, with the title, "Some short and plain arguments, from scripture, evidently proving the divinity of Our Saviour." In a letter to the Rev. Mr. Randolph, Rector of Deal.
     1757 (1751)  book 1, ode 15, of  Duncombe's The Works of Horace in Several Hands.
     1758 Epictetus (work started in 1749)
     1762 Poems on Several Occasions
     1763 Goes to Spa with Montagu
     1776 Poems on Several Occasions (3rd edition w. six new poems, says Hawley)
     1780 Fanny Burney writes about meeting Carter the first time
     1796 - Count de Bedee translates/publishes "Twelve Poems translated into French: ..."
     1807 Memoirs

Talbot did #30, Richardson #97 (the best seller), Hester Mulso Chapone did four letters for #10, Garrick did some of #15 and Joseph Simpson did part of #107>

(1717-1806), English poet and translator, daughter of the Rev. Nicholas Carter, was born at Deal, in Kent, on the 16th of December 1717. Dr Carter educated his children, boys and girls, alike; but Elizabeth's slowness tired his patience, and it was only by great perseverance that she conquered her natural incapacity for learning. She studied late at night and early in the morning, taking snuff and chewing green tea to keep herself awake; thus causing severe injury to her health. She learned Greek and Latin, and Dr Johnson said concerning a celebrated scholar that he “understood Greek better than any one whom he had ever known except Elizabeth Carter.” She learned also Hebrew, French, German, Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, and lastly some Arabic. She studied astronomy, ancient geography, and ancient and modern history.
Edward Cave was a friend of Dr Carter, and in 1734 some of Elizabeth's verses, signed “Eliza,” appeared in the Gentleman's Magazine, to which she contributed for many years. In 1738 Cave published her Poems upon Particular Occasions; in 1739 she translated from the French an attack on Pope's Essay on Man by J. P. de Crousaz; and in the same year appeared her translation from the Italian of Algarotti's Newtonianismo per le Dame, under the title of Sir Isaac Newton's Philosophy explained for the use of the Ladies, in six Dialogues on Light and Colour.
Why did she move back home???
Her translation of Epictetus (1758) was undertaken in 1749 to please her friends, Thomas Seeker (afterwards archbishop of Canterbury) and his niece, Catherine Talbot, to whom the translation was sent, sheet by sheet, as it was done. In 1762 Miss Carter printed a second collection of Poems on Several Occasions. Her letters to Miss Talbot contain an account of a tour on the continent undertaken in 1763 in company with Edward and Elizabeth Montagu and William Pulteney, 1st earl of Bath. Dr Carter, from 1762 to his death in 1774, lived with his daughter in a house at Deal, which she had purchased. An annuity was settled on her by Sir William Pulteney and his wife, who had inherited Lord Bath's fortune; and she had another annuity from Mrs Montagu. Among Miss Carter's friends and correspondents were Samuel Johnson, Bishop Butler, Richard Savage, Horace Walpole, Samuel Richardson, Edmund Burke, Hannah More, and Elizabeth Vesey, who was a leader of literary society. She died in Clarges Street, Piccadilly, on the 19th of February 1806.
Her Memoirs were published in 1807; her correspondence with Miss Talbot and Mrs Vesey in 1809; and her letters to Mrs Montagu in 1817. See also A Woman of Wit and Wisdom (1906), a biography by Alice C. C. Gaussen.

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Educated by her father - WITH siblings male and female - she was sent to Canterbury for a year to learn French in the house of a Huguenot refugee - "she also learned the common branches of needle-work, which she practiced to the very last; and music, in which, though very fond of it, she never seems to have made any considerable progress" (Pennington 12). Apparently it was difficult for her to learn at first, enough that dad suggested she stop, but she kept on (Pennington 11). "She rose early, and, to keep her attention from flagging at night, she took snuff, bound wet towels round her head and chewed green tea and coffee" (find source). She is sent to London to stay with friends and one or two uncles and "generally passed great part of the winter" there (Pennington 13)
Later in life she learned Portuguese ... Arabick, astronomy, ancient geography ... and Religion (Pennington 16-17)

What do we know about Nicholas Carter, "perpetual curate of a chapel at Deal, and one of the six preachers at Canterbury"According to Montagu Pennington he was a "graduate of Emanuel College in Cambridge and was considered a serious scholarin the Latin, Greek, and Hebrew languages. Later in his life, he became Rector of Woodchurch and of Ham as well as one of the six preachers in the Cathedral Church of Canterbury. His tracts of controversial divinity and a volume of his sermons demonstrate his deep knowledge of the Scriptures"
Father's poem on court life - 15


From father to Eliza 
“I must do you the justice to say, that I think you are an exception. I am extremely unwilling to cross your inclination in any thing, because your behavior to me is more than unexeptionable. I leave you, therefore, to act agreeably to your own judgement. My exceeding fondness of you must necessarily make me anxious and fearful; but it does not prevent me from being convinced that I may safely leave a great deal to your own judgment” (Pennington 26)
and in October 1729, when Elizabeth was only twelve years old, Dr. Carter wrote to her from Bath :
"And I must do you ye Justice to say, yt. Your Manner of writing is praise-worthy I cd. not forbear showing your Letter to Sr. George, who commended it extremely. One of your Age cd. spel so exactly & choose such proper Expressions". (qtd. in Hampshire 17) 
Pennington 28 has a footnote where a Mr. Pearse, according to Eliza's sister, in response to a question about whether she was married, responded "no, nor never will, only to God." 
Pennington 29 refers to a letter where Dr, Carter says: "If you intend never to marry, as I think you plainly, intimate in one of your letters, then you certainly ought to live retired, and not appear in the world with an expense which is reasonable upon the prospect of getting a husband, but not otherwise." 

Pennington 32 has daddy's advice on Eliza poem by someone else in the Almanack - to clarify author

Dr. Carter’s letters to Elizabeth Carter, written through the years from 8 October 1729 to 26, May 1761, are in a private collection (Hampshire 17)
Dr. Carter Seventeen Sermons on the Following Subjects (1738 - ECCO has Birch's copy)


Siblings: a) wife one (Margaret) - Nicolas, James, Elizabeth, John, Margaret,
                b) wife two - Mary and Henry
Sister Margaret was also well educated "being a very good Latin and French, and tolerable Greek and Italian scholar, with some knowledge also in Hebrew" (Pennington 10)
Mom (who had money that got lost in the South Sea bubble) dies when Eliza is 10.

Catherine Talbot (1721-1770) lived with mom and "uncle" Thomas Secker who became Archbishop of Canterbury in 1758 and then died in 1768. Catherine herself died of cancer in 1770 and her mom then gave to Carter a volume that the latter published at her own expense Reflections on the Seven Days of the Week and two years later Essays on Various Subjects. According Pennington in the preface to their correspondence she was taught religion, as well as those languages which are generally a part of female education (French and Italian), and science - astronomy, geography. She knew some Latin and taught herself German (page x). Pennington explains that she was not ugly or stupid, so that was not the reason she was single. Pennington explains that Carter did tell him to use his good judgment to decide what to do with the letters, and they were so well organized and there was nothing bad in them, he thinks they are ok to publish. Indeed, if the "if the purest morality recommended on the best principles; if the vital spirit of Christian Piety, breathed in language always persuasive, and often elegant, can engage the public attentions; then may it be hoped ... that these letters will not have been written in vain. They will at any rate serve as an additional proof, of which happily there are many living examples, that cheerfulness and gaiety are not inconsistent with the strictest virtue, nor the most exemplary piety, with the manners and society of high life" (page xxi).


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Madam Britannia: Women, Church, and Nation 1712-1812
by Emma Major

Women and Religion in England 1500-1720
by Patricia Crawford, Routledge, 1996

Trends in Education in the Eighteenth Century,
 By Nicholas Hans, Routledge, 1998

 International Handbook of Protestant Education,  
by William Jeynes, ‎David W. Robinson 2012 

Women and Enlightenment in Eighteenth-Century Britain
by Karen O'Brien, Cambridge UP, 2009

Websites:
Dissertation on the Legacy of Carter:
http://digitalarchive.gsu.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1073&context=english_diss

This webpage has correspondence TO Elizabeth Montagu from Elizabeth Carter:
http://www.faculty.umb.edu/elizabeth_fay/October28.html

About Mary Hamilton's diary:
http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk/2006/dec/03/books.monarchy 

"Aside from the domestic sphere, the letters she received from other noted 'bluestockings', such as Elizabeth Carter and Elizabeth Montagu, are valuable for the sense they give of the cultivated salon society she enjoyed. Of Carter, Hamilton wrote: 'She is, I imagine, the most learned female who ever lived' - although a frank, gossipy letter from Francis Lord Napier, her guardian's son, gives a rather more irreverent view. 'She was a fine old Slut,' he writes to Hamilton, 'though bearing not the least resemblance to a Woman. She had more the appearance of a fat Priest of the Church of Rome than an English Gentlewoman.' "